Disappearance

You ever have those times where you feel like you wanna just leave it all behind? For the past two days I’ve been having these feelings because of a recent situation and I’m sure this time I’m gonna leave off on my own accord with my sister and another. I don’t know how I’m gonna do it at this point but I’m definitely making the change because all I’m feeling is emotions and anxiety. I’m thinking of leaving from this city and just finding my way back to being happy because how I’m feeling at this rate I’ll go insane. I wanna forget everything and move on from the darkness, I wanna be numb to any pain. I’d say what happened but I can’t find the right words on how to put it into perspective and still come off as letting it go so we can move forward with our lives. I cry at night because it’s the only peace I have to myself without anyone seeing my vulnerability. I don’t give a shit about what others may think of me but I also wanna make the best decision for me and my sister. It’s 4:00am as I type this because I have a tough time sleeping now that I’m in this state of depression. I want my life to get better and I’m gonna make it happen by doing what I can with my own wits. I won’t let anyone bring me down or try to make me decide what they want because at the end of the day it’s my choice.